Positivity: Do you need an IVF holiday?

I began writing this blog in October last year approximately two months after my second failed IVF cycle. The feeling of desperation and sheer disappointment was unlike anything I had ever experienced, and I would have given anything for it to work for us. But it didn’t, so there I was left with only an injection marked stomach and a box of broken dreams, I mean vials, to show for it.

I decided to start a blog so that I could perhaps help others on a similar journey. When I started out on the road towards IVF a year ago this month there was little in the way of inspiring information out there. There were plenty of good stories and even more bad stories but nothing I could really relate to. I just wanted the facts. I wanted to know what it would really feel like to go through a cycle of IVF. How ill would I feel. How tired would I be. And, would I really be as grumpy and miserable as I thought I might be when I was on down regulation drugs?

So I got off to a fairly good start, I wrote a bit and gave a bit of background information about myself – I even had a comment from a very lovely reader, (hooray someone found my blog and read it), and then I kind of well, stopped.  The truth is I needed some time out. I needed a break from IVF for a while. My google search engine gave up the ghost and I finally exhausted everything out there to read and obsess over. Well that’s an exaggeration but you get what I mean. My brain was frazzled and my mind needed time off. In the words of my uber wise Yoga Teacher and Mentor – I needed an IVF holiday.

The funny thing is, during the darkest days I always longed for a bit of positivity. I longed to able to look on the brightside and imagine my own little family. I’m usually a fairly positive person but not it seemed where fertility was concerned.

Imagine my surprise when I heard myself saying to my husband that I must get on with my blog. I need to do it while I’m waiting for the IVF to work and I’m still in the IVF World. That I think may just have been my first positive thought ever where IVF and fertility is concerned.

So there we have it. I’m back. I’ve had my IVF holiday and I am ready to share my experiences with you. As I head towards my third IVF cycle I pray it works but in the meantime I promise to share my story in the hope it may also help you.